Vacation

The below slideshow is just some of the 300 pictures we took on our three day trip to the coast.
We went with my brother & sister in law, niece and nephew and scotts cousin and his family. it was for my nephews birthday.
The weather was cold, windy and rainy when we got there on Friday, but by Saturday afternoon it was beautiful(still cold) so we went out to the beach to walk around. Sunday was foggy, but that did not keep us from the beach again to hunt seashells!
I have NEVER seen so many seashells in all my life and they were the coolest i have ever seen on the beach!
The fishing was poor for the guys, due to the fresh water from the rain, but it did not stop them from trying. Scott got the only keeper, but let it go.
Well we all just had a great time hangin out and visiting with everyone!

Sargent, Texas

HOLY COW, I HAVE A........

..........two year old!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KYLE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KYLE!!!!!
I really can't believe he is already two, although his behavior has been showing the signs for about 6 months, he is still the little bitty baby i just had! (oh wait that is Ty:))
He still has NO idea about what his birthday means, i have been telling him for a few weeks and trying to get him to hold up two fingers, which he can't, but all he does is say 'birthday' and look at me like i am crazy. no real excitement yet, maybe next year!

Kyle, first thing this morning, watching his choo-choo video.

Heading out

Well despite the horrible weather we are experiencing, we are headed out to the coast. this is the second annual trip to Sargent,Texas for my nephews birthday! hopefully the weather will clear up so the kids can have fun, the guys can fish and i can get some photo time! hope to have some good photos and stories to blog about on monday! Have a good weekend!

Change Your World

http://www.whatkindofworlddoyouwant.com/videos/view/id/408214


Please, Please click on this link and watch this heart wrenching video. As many people as possible need to see this so things can change for the people effected by this disease!

Go away strike!

I am not going to pretend that i actually know what this whole writers guild strike is about , maybe i should research it so i can appreciate it! i am sure they probably have a really good reason for the strike and i completely understand the actors/actress and the like not crossing the picket line. but that is completely beside the point, what i know and need is for these people to figure out their problem and get back to writing. i really need my weekly break from reality, my veg time, my couch time and the reruns, gameshows and reality shows are just not cutin' it! i need my Grey's anatomy back and i really need Private Practice and CSI:Miami back! So peolpe, seriously come on now and save my sanity and start writing!

Laundry

I know you are probably thinking that this is gonna be a whole post about how i am buried in piles of laundry. Well i am actually swimming in laundry at the moment, but this is about what i find while attempting to get my laundry caught up.
being married to a machinist and a snuff dipper has really tested me when it comes to doing laundry. i never had to check my pockets before being married, because i did not use them. now i have to remember to go through everything or find the strangest things in my washing machine and dryer! i find drill bits, taps, inserts, candy, copenhagen cans( some empty, some full-talk about a mess), money and the paper i wash is crazy! i used to get so mad at scott for not emptying his pockets first, but then i had to take some responsibility because i don't check either.
well i have an entirely new problem to add to it, a 2 year old! he has recently discovered his pockets and rocks and change and anything else he can find that will fit into those little secret hiding places he calls 'poktets'. He thinks it is THE most amazing thing in the world to put something in his pockets, he gets a funny little grin on his face and does his fake laugh. cute, cute!
so now i have to remember if i don't wants rocks and such bangin in my dryer.....CHECK THE POCKETS!
now i am off to do some of that laundry!

Hopes & Wishes for my babies #1

So-from my last post you can probably tell i am not holding myself in the highest regards as a mother. so i figured i would write, in sort of a therapy type way, what exactly i want to accomplish as a mother.

One of the most important things i want to instill in my boys is a great sense of confidence.

i want them to know that they need to go out and grab life by the horn, take responsibility for the out come of life, which is going to require the confidence in themselves to be leaders. they need to understand the it is okay to follow sometimes, but they need to be strong and confident in their ideas, choices and opinions so they don't get lost while following.

I want them to be able to have the confidence to think outside the box and not to conform to what society wants them to be, look like or act like (of course responsibility with that, like following the law and please no black fingernail polish!)

really i want to raise them not to be shy and not reserved in opinions like their mother and father, i hope i can figure out how to do that! so - anyone have any pointers?

Just one moment

it is amazing how stuff just slaps us in the face sometimes. i had a one of those moments at the end of a rather hard day about 3 nights ago. i was rocking kyle to sleep after reading and singing to him. i was in the normal rush so i could have some me time on the computer or just in front of the TV, but for some reason i just held him a little longer and a little tighter than usual.
it was at this moment when i just thought to myself, 'if kyle and ty were to be out of my life for one reason or another tomorrow or vise versa, would i be okay with the kind of mother i am and how i am raising them?' and of course at this particular moment i had a rush of emotion with a flood of tears. just the very thought of never seeing the most awesome beings on the earth makes me want to vomit.
now, i'm sure i am not the first or the only mother to have this thought, but none-the-less i had it and it made me think, 'i would absolutely not be okay with the job i am doing!' i am not talking about the loving them part, because we can all be sure i am not lacking in that area and they know that. there is an abundance of hugs and kisses and i never forget to take the chance to tell them how much i love them and how much they mean to me.
i am talking about the parenting part, the teaching part, the discipline part, you know the, raising them part. Trying my hardest to make them mind, yet not to stifle there personality. trying to teach them without forcing them. i have not done this. i have let life and depression get the best of me. i find myself impatient and angry with them because i can't concentrate and my mind it else where. i yell to much without trying to figure the best way to teach them correct behavior. i always said i never want to resort to yelling and threatening, but i have been blindsided with mothering, totally caught off guard without a plan.
i guess realizing and admitting this is a good thing, although quite upsetting. i need to do something about it and not let my procrastinating tendencies take over.
i know one of the first things i need to do is turn off the mommy guilt, the TV, and give them and Scott my undivided attention.
I LOVE MY BOYS and want to do the best by them.

sprouting like weeds

I guess it is inevitable. Ty is gonna grow up. I have told him to stop, i have threatened to ground him, but the little monster just won't listen! This past tuesday he rolled over for the first time from his tummy to his back. We were at my mother-in-laws house and i didn't get to see it, i was a little upset. i am suppose to see all things! well it was thursday he started to grab at his feet. they must taste better than anything else he has had up until now, because he is always nibblin on those cute, fat toes! it is so cute to watch him play with his feet when he has his chubby little hiney and thick legs up in the air! then today(sunday) he rolled from his back to his tummy. i was so surprised he did that already! I guess its not gonna be to long before we are chasing him all over the house. i guess i won't need to jump the gun just yet!
he is also talking so much it is hard to get a word in edge wise! so i'm sure you can guess we don't get very many quiet moments now with kyle talking to much now also!
kyle has turned into quite the little dare devil lately, he will climb anything jump off anything! i know we need to just make reservations to the emergency room, but again i should not jump the gun and jinx myself! so there really hasn't been much going on around here, other than scott getting to go on what he calls his dream hunt. H e got invited to go to a deer lease in south texas to take a trophy deer. and just so anyone doesn't flip out we do eat the meat. unfortunately he did not harvest anything and didn't get to break in his new gun, but i think he still had fun!
Hope everyone has a good week!

New lens

here is a quick sample of my wide angle/fisheye lens i got for Christmas.

taken @ nonnies house.

not really sure yet what to do with it other than just play, hopefully a fun project will strike me.

New years eve

ok- so I know i am post this backwards, but oh well! We stayed home for new years just like every year, but this year we actually bought fireworks and contributed to the noise pollution in the neighborhood. our neighbors across the street with two little girls close to kyles age came out and popped fireworks with us. The big kids (baby kids and adult kids) had fun, but me and ty did not last long. I think it was the coldest night of the year, we went in early!

There is quite a bit of camera shake, i am still learning how to take low light pictures without a flash. I think they are pretty good concidering this is my first try at fireworks! maybe i will get better results on july 4th!

Our New Year

Well, we stared our new year with a pretty big milestone for Kyle! He got his "big boy" bed set up on January 1st! it is definatly a big source of entertainment if anything! he loves to just go in his room during the day and play on it! He really has done A LOT better than i thought. The first few nights he only came out of his room a handful of times, but never fussed when we brought him back to bed.

He does however LOVE to stay in there and play with his toys, but after a few times of us telling him to go night-night, he falls asleep. Usually with about 10 toys in his bed with him! and he has not woke up in the middle of the night and got in bed with us! That is what i was worried about, because Scott has made it a habit in the past few months to let him come into our room

in the middle of the night if he wakes up. Well, hopefully it continues to go well because potty training is right around the corner!